There’s different kinds of bravery that happen every day, in a teeny way. There’s also big bravery that we see more visibly, but I have been more preoccupied with the little personal acts of bravery, where you defy yourself more than anything else. That’s sometimes the hardest kind, if we have preconceived ideas of what our limits and boundaries are…how to overcome those when no one challenges them regularly, that’s pretty hard. When no one calls on you to change, or to push yourself, why would you ever choose to do so.
To be brave requires a certain steely outlook; that this task will be completed at all costs. To accompany the act is calm, or an acceptance of things to come. Or is that true? Can you be brave while still kicking and screaming? Or does that minimize the act? I ask because in some instances I can be super calm and super focused and supportive , while other times I can be a real mess and need a lot of help myself. I can’t imagine that an attitude always negates the hard work a person puts into accomplishing something that is hard for them. That would discount too many personal triumphs and successes that were handled less than delicately. I think of my inability to ski without making grunting noises to stop. Never mind the bitching and moaning and blaming along the way.
Sometimes, the bravery is challenged by the low self-esteem, and the pressure we can put on ourselves to look confident in front of others when we are really really scared. As my brother says, sometimes it’s most important to go ahead and do it, but other times it’s important to listen to yourself and decide what is best for you. Sometimes it’s ok to relax and let go of something, and sometimes when you let go of something like that you save yourself having a temper tantrum. Other times, it’s the best time, as my brother suggests, to dig in and get busy and messy so that you can end up skiing down a mountain…it’s pretty complicated….
I am reminded of my grandmother, again the muse of this blog, who was brave for people when they couldn’t be. As a nurse, she was compassionate and present during palliative care, not one to shy away from difficult situations. She raised a family of 6 children. She volunteered and gave selflessly. Although she wouldn’t necessarily have made history books, she was a real hero and deeply brave. But then again, I never saw her ski…
These little moments, whether done gracefully or not, I think still qualify as bravery. Whether it be a single mom finding work or trying to make ends meet, or a child learning to swim, or someone tackling a financial statement analysis for the first time (taking wayyyy too long, p.s.), we are all making small acts of bravery all the time.
And yes, did you figure out I’m going on a ski trip this weekend?